Attitude.

This last week has been about my attitude. And how I needed to adjust it.

I've just finished this book by Anne Bogart about making art in unpredictable times. She breaks up the book into eight tools for action: context, articulation, intention, attention, magnetism, attitude, content and time. Attitude is the section that spoke to my dilemma this week.

The attitude with which you bring to a situation, is what the situation will be. If you consider a person to be a difficult person, they will be because they may sense your attitude towards them and react accordingly. So, I choose the have an attitude adjustment. I have been seeing school, classmates, relationships, well...life in general in a specific attitude. A worried attitude. It's an attitude I get when I'm......well, it's just a shitty attitude that I'd like to overcome.

Last night I rolled my ankle while walking home from a party and bruised my foot pretty bad. Therefore, today, sunday, I spent writing a paper for school, doing laundry, chatting with visitors and meditating....the majority of the time being the meditating stuff. It was the first sunny day that we have had in London in a long time and so taking the day to myself to reflect was beneficial. Usually I meditate while in motion (i.e. running, walking dancing) but due to my foot being out of commission I meditate in a stationery sitting position.

I need to meditate more. especially when I feel out of joint, as I have been feeling the last few weeks.

Needless to say, my head did a spin, I reconnected my mind and body...which for some reason were fighting with each other, and now I believe I have found resolve for the next coming weeks. My attitude is a choice and I take responsibility for it.

1. I respect my classmates and believe that school is continuously moving me as an artist and as a person.
2. If something is going well, trust it. If something is going bad, trust it.
3. Lastly, from Anne Bogart, "Art is an act of the spirit. It asks you to be a conduit for something larger than yourself. You listen to voices from the past in service of the common culture you share with those around you. With an understanding of why, then Heaven and Earth will move in response to your action. I believe this to be the fundamental grace that allows for action in our difficult times."